day 13-someone you wish could forgive you

westley james,

i know i've already talked about you once, but you really are the ONE person who i wish would forgive me.

sure, i've done some not so nice things to alot of people, but you're the ONE person i want back in my life whom i genuinely feel bad about hurting.

i really am sorry, and im sorry i told you, and i'm sorry for all of the guilt you felt, and the breakdowns i caused.

im so grateful you didnt tell on me, even though you told andy when you promised you wouldnt.

i forgive you

i am so happy that despite the fact you sorta hated my guts, you still didnt rat me out when it was killing you inside and you wanted nothing more.

had i have known that is how you would have felt, i never would have told, but at the time we were really close and i thought i could confide in you about anything.

im sorry that it was the bad friend thing to do, and i hope you understand i didnt do it to hurt you.

you really are so nice, and it KILLS me not to talk to you.

i get tempted to text you every now and then but i know that you wanted me out fast, so i'm doing my best to respect that.

i miss you!

i remember when we went to indian food on our first lunch date and you called in sick to work because it was my ONLY free day for weeks.

and how we set up your tattoo apt and talked about your "sea horse" tattoo and i just couldnt comprehend it.

and how you were allergic to milk and EVERYTHING has milk in it, so we could never get icecream, but we did find a sushi place you could eat things at, yahoo.

i liked watching you guys record your cd and watching your shows.

"lets hear your battle cry, goooo".

i loved just laying and talking about everything for hours and day time naps.

i remember the first (and only) time i saw you after you told me i didnt fit into your life anymore and how we didnt say a WORD to each other, even though we were in the same room for hours.

it ate at me for the entire night.

i remember seeing you with layton girl at your show and being a little crushed.

westley, sorry for everything and all the drama i brewed up.

it really was not my intentions.

i hope some day you will find it in your heart to forgive me and we can be friends again.

you are really a great person with a huge heart, dont let people continue to take advantage of it.

love,

randi