boys

"baby is a bad boy with some retro sneakers.

lets go see the killers and make out in the bleachers.

i like you a lot lot, think you're really hot hot...

boys boys boys, we like boys in cars.

boys boys boys, buy us drinks in bars...

we love them."

in case you didnt know, i am a bit boy crazy.

here is my "best of 2010" boys who i find wildly attractive.

in no order

andy, the other tucker, jim, nathan, chad, kyle, johnny, james, craig, gregory

christmas vacation

Oh, what a great week this has been.
a fantastic week at that.

for starters, if we are FB friends i'm sure you already know i got a 4.0 gpa with my 15 credit hours. a first for me probably since high school, so i am really proud of my perfect grades.

secondly, i found out two whole months after applying that i got my internship at Weber Metro CSI. This is the place i was really heart set on interning at, and i didnt apply anywhere else. In October i had a polygraph test and knew they conducted a fairly extensive background check on me. i hadnt heard from them and was beginning to get a little nervous but tuesday i got the call and they'd love to have me.
my internship will consist of me putting in 100+ hours with the csi in ogden and riding along to crime scenes. they did inform me however that i cant go to homicide scenes while the body is still at the scene because they dont want me funking anything up.
go ahead and call me grism



Us Newbolds dont have many family traditions, but the ones we do typically involve food. haha. our christmas tradition is to decorate gingerbread cookies for the chirstmas tree, here are a few from this year:

I attended the 2nd annual ugly christmas sweater party at the buckners and liz and i FINALLY got a picture together. in the LAST month of the year. at least we made it happen. here is the family photo:

My best friends' wedding:

Kake became official for time and eternity yesterday, dec 18, 2010. they got married in the draper temple and it was FREEZING cold and windy because the temple sits at the very top of a hill with no wind barrier. the pictures are going to be interesting to see because we were all so wind blown just waiting for them to get out. they had a beautiful reception at the atrium and i got to catch up with all my old friends, it was great.

here is my favorite family on the big day:

day 15-someone you miss the most/day 16-someone in a different state

the person i miss happens to live in another state, so its a two for one deal.

boobear,

i miss you, lots.

i am so happy we still talk almost every day.

i am really happy we met that night at your house, when you were being too cool for everyone.

haha, i remember dustin saying "that's nate for ya, he'll somehow win your heart" and you did.

i loved spending every single day with you and was so sad when the season was over and you moved home.

im glad we didnt have some dramatic goodbye, because it wasnt goodbye, just see you later.

(ugh, except for that morgan drama which we wont talk about. haha. stupid girl. glad i got her water bottle out of the deal though)

i am really happy you made it out to slc so many times this summer and i'm glad i flew to vegas for a DAY just to see you and spend the 6 hour drive home with you.

we really are so much fun, and i loved when we were at lunch with rob and you said

"i could spend forever with her, except she doesnt like animals....so that may be a deal breaker"

haha.

oh gosh, you are too great.

we are crazy, and a good fit.

remember that one night? you know the one. haha. that was too funny.

and that day after you got back from colorado and we went to slc to see john's cousin?

hahaha. we seriously make me laugh.

i hope you're having so much fun in tahoe, and i cant wait to come visit you and john.

i loved your house and miss having everyone around.

i am so proud of you for working so hard all summer and finding a job in tahoe now.

i hope you do pursue your dreams of going to school for geology.

you know i will be your tutor, since i'm almost a college grad and all.

haha.

xoxo,

randi

day 14-someone you've drifted away from

its hard to just one person for this.

there are alot of people i feel like were a major part in my life and now we're not as close.

lots of friends from my first year of college who have graduated and moved on.

when trying to pinpoint just one person, i cant do it.

so i pick josie and avery.

josie,

after high school when you told me you were going to weber i was so excited.

i wish we were living together this year because our two years together were so great.

i loved running errands with you, like that time an old man said "you could stop traffic in those shorts" haha.

i miss wearing crazy outfits to smiths with you and going to the gym every single day.

i miss when you'd drive me to school and we'd think we saw everyone on the hockey team but really our eyes were just so bad we thought it was them and it wasnt.

i loved our easter egg party with amanda in the spare bedroom with glowsticks.

and going to school dancing and singing all the songs (cyclone, solja boy, etc)

that summer at legends was probably my favorite summer ever.

i loved always being over and swimming and just hanging out every single day.

i loved when i didnt have a cell phone in highschool how i'd give all the boys we'd meet your phone number.

remember that HORRIBLE blind date we went on to the Korn concert? hahaha.

cute boy we met driving and his fatso-mcgee friend

how awkward.

im glad that even though we arent at close as we used to be we're still friends.

sorry to hear about Tang, i wish he wasnt so dumb because our days down there with kev and him were so fun.

and how i kissed ALL their roommates. haha.

woops.

and that time they wouldnt stop tickling me and i peed my pants, oh gosh.

i miss you, and if you ever need anything you know i'd be there.

randi

Avery,

"best fraaan", i miss you.

i miss hanging out with you every single day.

it is weird to go from hanging out every single day for months to just not even talking.

i wish you didnt get back with brooke on your birthday, because now i feel she takes all your time and you have no time left for me.

i appreciate all the things you took me to do like jazz games and dinners.

i loved that day you skipped all your classes so we could go to PF changs and get lettuce wraps with your mom.

and that day we went to noodles & co and went to visit vanessa at work.

i loved that i got invited to your birthday celebration with your whole family.

i really do love the house family and wish i'd see them more.

sorry for all the hockey drama that you've had to deal with this year (not related to me).

hopefully if you really do transfer schools it will be better.

after all, weber is a bit of a shitshow to watch.

i miss you, and if you ever get tired of brooke, you know dear old best fraaan randi will be there.

try not to ignore everyone else in your life (family/me/friends) just because of her.

i know you did it for two years before and it hurts the people around you, try to avoid making that mistake again.

i wish we were still best fraaans, because i still need someone to talk to and play with every day.

:(

day 13-someone you wish could forgive you

westley james,

i know i've already talked about you once, but you really are the ONE person who i wish would forgive me.

sure, i've done some not so nice things to alot of people, but you're the ONE person i want back in my life whom i genuinely feel bad about hurting.

i really am sorry, and im sorry i told you, and i'm sorry for all of the guilt you felt, and the breakdowns i caused.

im so grateful you didnt tell on me, even though you told andy when you promised you wouldnt.

i forgive you

i am so happy that despite the fact you sorta hated my guts, you still didnt rat me out when it was killing you inside and you wanted nothing more.

had i have known that is how you would have felt, i never would have told, but at the time we were really close and i thought i could confide in you about anything.

im sorry that it was the bad friend thing to do, and i hope you understand i didnt do it to hurt you.

you really are so nice, and it KILLS me not to talk to you.

i get tempted to text you every now and then but i know that you wanted me out fast, so i'm doing my best to respect that.

i miss you!

i remember when we went to indian food on our first lunch date and you called in sick to work because it was my ONLY free day for weeks.

and how we set up your tattoo apt and talked about your "sea horse" tattoo and i just couldnt comprehend it.

and how you were allergic to milk and EVERYTHING has milk in it, so we could never get icecream, but we did find a sushi place you could eat things at, yahoo.

i liked watching you guys record your cd and watching your shows.

"lets hear your battle cry, goooo".

i loved just laying and talking about everything for hours and day time naps.

i remember the first (and only) time i saw you after you told me i didnt fit into your life anymore and how we didnt say a WORD to each other, even though we were in the same room for hours.

it ate at me for the entire night.

i remember seeing you with layton girl at your show and being a little crushed.

westley, sorry for everything and all the drama i brewed up.

it really was not my intentions.

i hope some day you will find it in your heart to forgive me and we can be friends again.

you are really a great person with a huge heart, dont let people continue to take advantage of it.

love,

randi

day 12-the person who caused you the most pain/you hate

wow, i had no idea today's note was about the person who coincidentally said sorry to me yesterday.
maybe he reads my blog and saw his day was quickly approaching and didnt want everyone to hear all the horrible things i thought about him.
or maybe it was divine intervention.
who knows, but consider yourself lucky sXe boy, i am sparing you the humiliation.


if i exclude this said-mentioned person, i cant really think of anyone who has caused me alot of pain.
the quote "Thanks a heap coyote ugly. This cactus-gram stings even worse than your abandonment." comes to mind about someone, but i'm pretty sure they know who they are and why i dont like them.

maning up

there was a person in my life who had caused me a little bit of stress and whole lot of heart ache whom i had some hard feeling towards and i'd been harboring them for months, nearly half a year.
to simplify the story, i will cut straight to the chase.
i hadnt talked to this person in months, or nearly half a year and yesterday i received a text that said:
"im sorry if my insecurities and bullshit hurt you...i know words dont make it better but i was having a hard time and hurting people around me"

you have idea how much relief this simple phrase brought me.
because YES, you DID hurt me and you WERE full of bullshit,
and you're right it DOESNT make it better.

but i appreciated the fact that at least this was a sorry.
that this person acknowledged how awefully they handled the situation
and despite the fact that he is 24 years old, he acted like a little child about it.
i like that this peson maned up to how poorly he'd treated me.
it meant alot.
it made me realize a simple "im sorry" when truely sincere means so much.

"fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me"